Onni re onni 0_0 oto shahittik bhabe likhar time nai hahah but recently ki mone kore jeno ami kakaotalk er arekta app Kakao comic er ad e click kore giyechhilam. And ki mone kore jeno ekta webtoon e click korlam. Tarpor r thamae k :| jani na webtoon-anime same jinish ki na. But I'm so hooked! Shob korean e so ami kothin fantasy mantasy porte jai na. Just normal shtoory porlei my insides start dancing in conga hahah ken jani jegula tv te dekhle rag uthar kotha ba cliche lagar kotha comic er moto porle oto boring lage na kekek~but worst part is waiting for new episodes/chapter TT.TT 2 min por por i khali app check kori jodi jani new chapter ashe nai. Anyway hahah, tui to onek porish so u know how it feels :p kalke ekta khubi shundor maiyar pic dekhe ekta webtoon pora start korlam..maiya etoi shundor j ami lesbo hoye gelam reeeee~so tor shathe koekta pic share korchhi ^__^
Tonight is the night ^_^ I had been looking forwarding to it for quite some time now. Partly because it gives me an excuse to skip tutoring, and partly bcoz I’m hoping……to see someone K LOL I cannot believe I’m right where I so badly didn’t want to be. Last time I had a crush it was dull, and wrong! I was beginning to think I’ve lost the ability to have crushes :/ which was good and also bad. The last time I was asked out by a friend, it freaked me out soo much that I became more immune to crushes..but weirdly I realized one thing about myself-that MAYBE I’d be okay with something formal this time. Yeah, I have no idea what this means either :v anyway when I first started working, my 차장님 was after me to get a boyfriend. He would introduce me to people and hint about being single every time :| which is fun but embarrassing at times. There was one time he introduced me to a 대리, and since he was kinda younger than most other 대리s in the office, 차장님 kept hinting that he’s available and good looking and we should get to know each other. At that time, I had NO, ZERO interest in that guy, I mean I’m pretty awkward with introductions and add some blind date set-up to it and it’s a recipe for disaster! I was very turned off and nervous, I’m pretty sure my first impression was boring and uninterested. The guy asked me ‘Oh..are you feeling awkward?’ What kind of question is that -___- even if I was feeling awkward, did I have to spell it out for him? At moments like this, I tend to behave strangely, and I answered yes, which may have put him off too. Over the next few days we ran into each other in the corridor and greeted politely. There was another time 차장님 asked him ‘Doesn’t Taiefa look pretty these days?’ which was a clever way of making him say the same thing. I did blush K but I was perfectly aware that the comment was not originally his, and it was just a politeness for him. Then our office was rearranged on new year’s eve. We moved to the left side of the floor, and I stopped seeing him. But the day I actually found him cute was when he was passing by with his friend and said ‘안녕 Taiefa! 안녕!’ I was startled (as usual) and only managed a formal greeting awkwardly. I liked how his voice sounded cute while he repeated 안녕 :3 heeheehee I saw him in a different light that day. After a few days he showed up at our side to say hi to Lee대리. While he was leaving Park과장 said ‘Isnt he handsome?’ to me. I went all wide-eyed…omg I do find him cute and there’s NO way I’m gonna admit that infront of everyone! So I said ‘Why do Korean guys always ask that!’ and instantly I heard roars of laughter around us. My defense against awkwardness had backfired and made everything even more awkward. The guy ( I need a good nickname for him) seemed pretty embarrassed too and said “next time someone asks this, just say yes!” (he was laughing too) I felt kinda guity….maybe I should’ve said yes, maybe that’s the culture..or maybe I offended him. I dunno, I didn’t see him at our side since then. As days passed by, I grew curious and restless. :/ I was hoping to say something nice to him to make up for my blunder. But he was nowhere to be seen… L after many many days, we met in restaurant during lunch time, but only greeted each other silently. I decided to give up on whatever this mini-crush is, until tonight~~~~~~
I had a secret buried hidden subconscious wish at the back of my mind that he would turn up at the wine club party. The party was supposed to start at 7pm, a bit late in my opinion. After I finished my work at 5, I wandered around, already out of energy. Around 6 I went to buy the wine with Jo차장 and Kim차장. I was starting to get worried. Around 6:30 I noticed a lot of people leaving for dinner, and some going home. What if nobody shows up at the club gathering? L I didn’t want this plan to go flop, feeling sorry for Jo-Kim차장. At 7, only a few people had shown up, I pushed away any hope to see that guy and helped prepare the snacks. We had nearly lost all hopes and started drinking wine on our own. The door opened and a few more people came in, among them I saw a scrawny figure wearing glasses, he came!
‘Taiefa, why are u drinking wine before everyone else?’, he asked as soon as he saw me, with a weary voice *squeeeeeal*
‘I..um…well Lee대리 poured me some~’
‘Do you like wine?’
‘Only if it tastes sweet~’
‘Sweet? Like baby-taste…’
I couldn’t help it, I had a ridiculous grin suppressed in me. There was something different about him, he looked worn out, wearing glasses, his voice more casual than before, but still cute. I think I like him like this, although I’m not sure how I felt about the casual tone…hmmm. As we sat down he asked “Do you like barbequing meat?’ I wasn’t sure if he meant barbequed meat or barbequing the meat :/ ‘Umm…if someone barbeques it for me..sure!’ I answered. ‘So you’re indirectly telling me to do it for you?’ ‘Yes please~’ I said more confidently, but inside I was confused as hell!! Why is he talking so much to me…? The most conversation we had was “Hello” and “Goodbye”, I felt some enthusiasm/effort on his part for making conversation. Not that I’m complaining..lol..but I’d like no clear out any misconceptions or crush-blindness. The wine lesson/lecture started and I dozed off in my world of imagination :33 From the corner of my eye, I saw him feeding Lee대리 a few times. *cuuuuutttteeeee* After an hour or so, when I felt like the day couldn’t possible get any longer, the lecture was over. Hurrrrraaay :D time for some yummies and *cough*some time with the guy*cough*cough* From office to the restaurant I noticed he kept trying to walk with me, a few times I slowed down intentionally, but everytime he was beside me he’d talk. He made a classic Korean ‘let’s be friends with foreigners’-move, which was ‘please teach me english’ He asked me to help him with his English test next month..maybe it was just for the sake of conversation :/// I do have a bad habit of analyzing stuff too much, so this time I’m taking everything superrr slow and cool. At the restaurant, I sat beside Jo차장, even though the seat beside the guy was empty. I was quiet most of the time; my body stopped responding to my desire to be more playful. All I could think of was taking the subway back home before 11. The guy asked me few things here and there, and I observed him quietly. So far…I liked what I saw. His voice is on the lower side, but not boring, skinny, but not scrawny ( I know I called him scrawny bfore but he’s really not) he was playful but not wild, gentle but still casual (still confused about the casual part) Okay, maybe I didn’t like how he switched to informals suddenly, I mean even Lee대리 uses formals with me K! But on the other hand, it could be his effort to get closer (as friends)….??? He’s clearly older than me thus he has the right to use formals…and maybe this is how Koreans do it :@ :@ ‘Do you remember when you said why Korean guys always ask that infront of Park 대용형?’ ‘Yeah…so?’ ‘As soon as you said that, all the guys around us started laughing …at me! That’s why I can’t go to that side anymore!’ LOL..seriously that’s the reason?? I apologized, a bit surprised. ‘I should go there to see you’, he added and I felt my rsupressed grin burst out on my face KEKE. After dinner, we stepped outside to go our separate ways. Kim대리 suddenly said ‘Oh she’s really good at Korean!’ Then he imitated something I said to him earlier ( I gotta admit it was a pretty accurate imitation :v )Then the guy also chimed in with him, and he also quoted me, imitating my voice kekeke One of the lady차장s asked how I was planning to get back home. She was suggesting I go to 사당 station with her, I shook my head rather dramatically, and the guy said ‘Don’t act cute! My immediate reaction was-‘You shouldn’t look then!’ and everybody went :O while laughing ‘ouchhh…burn!’ ‘omg, you really find her cute then!?’ they teased him, and he out one hand on his chest as if his heart ached OJ kekekek the only time I’ve heard guys say that to me was when I was doing absolutely NOTHING remotely cute! If I was indeed acting cute, I would’ve been like-ok fine~I’ll stop. But since I wasn’t, means they think I’m cute and that’s their way of saying it (that’s my explanation, please provide feel free to give your input here) Danny bhaiya used to say that a lot, and he did try to itish-pitish with me! >K So, this ‘Don’t act cute’ comment really bothers me, if u can’t handle my natural cuteness then beat it! Anyhoo~I officially declare him as my crush KEKEKEK maybe I won’t see him around that much….but I sure hope we dooooooo :3 :3 *mini-swoons*
At exactly 5:30 I left for tutoring. Said my goodbyes and headed for the elevator. As the elevator arrived I saw Ma이사님 coming out of another elevator. I hadnt talked to him much this week, not that it was a big deal, but I kinda missed his goofy old man-ness. KEKEKEKmaybe I hang around old people so much that I'm starting to find them more relatable and fun than people of my own age( or atleast koreans of my own age). Ma이사님 looked quite cheerful, I grabbed my chance to greet him properly and patted myself on the back. I noticed the BB BITCH ( the intern who I've cast as my arch nemesis, for fun tongue emoticon ). BB Bitch was holding the elevator for me -__________- omg, I was hoping to take the next one all to myself. I stepped inside reluctantly. I saw that he had pressed 5th floor. PHEW!! Bitch will be out in a few seconds and imma be at peace! We reached 5th floor, the door opened, bitch better be moving. Wait, he's turning slightly, oh NO! Towards ME! 0_0 I froze, horror-stricken as he bowed in slow motion (dramatic effect added by my brain) and said '안녕히가세요'. All I could manage was a weak '네ㅔㅔ' and felt a tight slap around my face. OMG, my WORST fear was coming true!, no HAD already come true-BB Bitch was being NICE to me! EWWWWWW, nooooo!! EWEWEWEWW!! The horror, the blasphemy, the hoorendous crime, the utterly unbelievable outrage that I had just witnessed...how do I ever recover from this? Walking out of the building I contemplated the chances of this all being his grand scheme. Maybe it was HIM who cursed me with my bad health...yess..that makes sense!
The aftermath of the shock was me buying a dress and a skirt on my way home. Damn you BB Bitch! grumpy emoticon
I was spinning in my chair impatiently when Jo차장 came in. “You must be bored…lets go for some tea” I jump out of my chair even before he finished his sentence. My ass has suffered enough for the day. We ask Kim차장 to join us, with a phone in his ear his signals us to leave first. Down at the coffee shop Jo차장 asks me what I’d like to drink. I scan the menu swiftly for the specific letters- m, n, g, k, w. And I see K-w! Kiwi juice :3 my holy grail in Korea, it’s the only thing that can substitute my thirst for mango I think. We sit down after getting our drinks and see Kim차장 coming in with…another lady who’s name I don’t remember. Anyhoo….the adults start talking about their wine club, trying to decide a name for it. “Autoever Wine Club?” Jo차장 suggests. “Nah….that sounds dull” the lady whose name I don’t remember says. I blank in and out of the conversation while constantly checking my phone. And I remember Natalie is leaving today. My heart clenches a bit, and I let out a deep sigh. Why are ALL my close friends leaving this year? There Donghyun oppa ( USA-1 year) , Minseok oppa (Australia-1 year) , Yuri (El Salvador-2 years), Tiara (She was only in Korea for the semester)….maybe I’ve been cursed L(( I know Allah punishes me from time to time whenever I get too happy. Nailpolish-allergy! Shrimp-allergy! Jeggings-allergy! Whoever I get close to- moves away or I move away or goes to study abroad -_- but Natalie…! I cant imagine a Korea without her :’( Even though we haven’t been super close this past semester, we never feel awkward to peek up where we left off. She has been one of the constant friends who offer moral support no questions asked. Even with so much cultural differences, she never made me feel misunderstood. We have this silly voice of talking whenever we are excited together. Kekekek :v I remember the last we hung out, having yummy Persian pizza and chatting away all our feelings…I must be stronger K After all, this is life I had chosen for myself, where people would come and go constantly, leaving little to mourn the loss of their presence. Even me, myself has moved around way too much. I can hardly believe it, I have lived in three different places in my three years in Korea. And I’m about my move yet again in my fourth year~phew! That’s too much physical and mental strain on my feeble heart. I console myself with the hope of writing long-glittery letter to Sweden later :D I blink back to the present, the wine club discussion still going on. “Do you like wine?” Kim차장 asks. “Yeah I do” I reply quietly. “Good, then you should join! Next Thursday after work, don’t forget.” I nod happily at the thought of skipping tutoring that day. I’ve had the pleasure of tasting wine three times in my life. First time when I was kid, somebody had brought a bottle of wine as a gift. I was so curious about the taste that I begged my mom over and over to let me take a sip. Surprisingly, she let me :O It was only a tiny sip. “I’m letting u taste it so that you know how horrible it is and never ask for ti again.” She was right indeed. It tasted gross, like spoiled grapes, making me choke. The next time I had wine, it was in the Muju trip (which I went to with Mike, Roly and Tiara). We had visited the famous Muju Winery Tunnel. The wine there was...heavenly~~~~made from the best and most fresh grapes of Muju. It was like drinking extra fresh grape juice. And the last time was……a few weeks ago, just after Christmas, Jo차장 took me out for a drink and insisted I try the Christmas wine. It was different, not bitter, but not entirely sweet either. Overall, I liked it; I find wine to be the most elegant from of alcohol out there, though nothing can beat cocktails (non-alcoholic ones of course). Anyway, we headed back to the office, and after an hour of finishing up my work I left for tutoring. On my way to tutoring I messaged Daehan oppa :3 :3 It was a shock to receive his text after…2 years! :o I will rewind and elaborate a bit here. 2 years ago, when my family (Mu, pu and boggo) had come to visit me in Korea, we had been invited to the SK Telecom’s vise president’s house. He had two adorable sons~both of whom were Kyunghee students coincidentally :D they were soo cute, pushing one another to make the make the first move. They spoke to us in English after a lot of hesistation. Me and boggo kept whispering about how cute they were. After my family left Korea, I received a letter from one of the bros at my dorm. It was soooo adorable beyond words...even though I had a bf that time, I was swept off my feet by that gesture >_< hoohoo! So hearing from one of the bros after so many days was a shock and pleasure ^_^ It was somewhat odd though, him texting me out of the blue like that, seeming overly enthusiastic O.o Anyway, he said he’ll be graduating in February and also asked me to hang out with them sometime. Hehe I don’t know how serious he was but I’d be more than glad to meet them again. I reach the coffee shop where I’m supposed to tutor and sit down. Feeling unusually exhausted, I ordered a sandwich. Perhaps it was my worst moon party in a long time, I’ve never felt this exhausted before. Throughout the tutoring session I could barely keep my eyes open, nodding and adding comments weakly. I felt guilty about teaching haphazardly today, but my body was failing against me. When I finished I took the subway. Moon party was in it’s full eclipse…I decided it was better to stand all the way to avoid any accident. Ten minutes into the ride, I started to feel queasy. It was as if my body parts were shutting down one by one. A strange internal alarm went off in my head, prompting me to put my ipad back inside the bag, fearing that I would drop it anytime. I tried holding on to the pillar beside me. Too late, my vision got blurry and hearing muffled; a feeling similar to the effect or air pressure. I prayed in my head so that I don’t lose my consciousness. I saw someone leave their seat. Slowly I sat down gratefully. I don’t know for how long, but even my mind shut down for a while and I hung my head, paralyzed. When I came back to my senses, the train had stopped at a station. I was too weak to move and see which station, and instantly the train started again. I looked around and realized I had just missed my station -___- dang it! I was sweating and shivering all the way back home, weird I know K I took a long hot shower, ate chocolates and launched myself on my laptop. Still feeling lightheaded, I followed my usual routine of calling my parents, answering all the kakaotalks, saying one last goodbye to Natalie and finally sleep O:)
And now here I am the next day, done with my template and typing away all the shit in my head. Also chatting with my friend on facebook :D which I opened for a peek kekeke hopefully I will get to go home early today :/ that’s all for now~ Miso out!
Today morning….has been the crappiest start of work. I managed to wake up early, just time to find out the glorious arrival of my moon party. I had been anticipating it so that I can wear my new pencil skirt which I have been dying to wear ever since I bought it. Quick shower, emergency chocolate supply and off to work by the subway. I was lucky to find a seat quickly; I don’t think my moony state can handle the physical strain of standing so long. The ride went smoothly, submerged in a trashy novel ’50 Shades Darker’ in my hands. I even reached exactly at 8:30am, an impossible feat most days. However, the series of problems began as soon as I reached my desk. I shared my emergency chocolates with colleagues/차장님s ㅋㅋ another mini accomplishment. I turned the computer on hoping to dive into the DPP project files which I was supposed to work on. But damn my luck, the computer decided put on its dancing shoes and go wild. Nothing was working properly...foe about one hour and a half. I will skip the torturous details to spare whoever’s reading this mundane piece. On top of that my locker was replaced against my knowledge…causing an unnecessary fuss. Moving on, I have decided to skip lunch today, perhaps that will be wise as my stomach feels full with....strange sickness. Everyone seems exceptionally busy today, then again, haven’t they always been..? I saw one of the new interns lurking around earlier; strangely I felt a sting of antagonism towards him. :o I don’t know…maybe I feel competitive? But I'm sure I dont feel that way when I see other interns. From the moment I saw him I didn’t like his ass-kissy face, yeah..he definitely has that face, with BB cream_foundation) on! LOL talk about over presenting -_-
It is lunch time, the office room fell silent as I watched my 차장s leave and raise eyebrows at my “diet” excuse. L I am somewhat hungry though…but scared of having a moon accident around here. No, I must hold brace myself and endure this..better get back to the project file :/
Okay..so things got better after lunch hour. I finished the tedious task of reading the DPP project file and started making a new template. This time I will apply minimalism to the maximum! I have seen enough disappointment throughout my last semester to be facing the same at work. So far, I think I’ve been doing better at work than my semester classes; I am praying tin my head day and night that it stays this way. Back to the good part, I was browsing aimlessly while Jo차장님 called me from behind. “바빠?” he asked softly. I shook my head, eager to get away from my desk and have some blood circulation in my butt. All the meeting rooms being occupied to my delight, we headed outside the office for some hot choco beverage. I don’t usually drink anything, but for choco I can make exception. We sat in 조차장님’s favourite coffee shop. Sleek bar at one side, an attractive wall decorated with retro antiques and nice music playing in the background, it was the perfect escape for my suffering butt. Contrary to what I had thought about the meeting, it turned out to be much simpler, to my relief. He asked me to explain the project briefly, which I did with some confidence. We discussed the details…and surprisingly I had quite a few good inputs as well. I felt happy for the moment to be making a sensible business conversation. Had I made the right decision with my major? I wondered for a split second…..I had faint interest in my dad’s work…at some point of my life, if it not were for the politics; I might’ve actually pursued it too. With my tiny administrative knowledge and seeing how I much I’m loving this professional environment I can totally imagine myself working as a consultant or manager, like the 차장님s around me. I quickly pushed the thought away before it made a greedy turn. We discussed further and eventually headed back to office. 차장님 said he will officially start the project of starting a company in BD from tomorrow, and suggested that I should help. ‘Really? What’s your first step?’ I asked enthusiastically. ‘That’s exactly my question!’ he answered and we both burst into a giggle. “I’ll send you a file regarding the project” he added and I beamed at him.
The evening went better than expected J I was spinning on my chair out of boredom….mostly facing towards Park과장님 kekke :v and soon enough he started chatting up with me. He kept asking over and over why I skipped lunch -_- urrggh cant a girl just skip her lunch in peace?? Suddenly Ma이사님, our director popped out of nowhere, making me and Park과장 freeze. “Speak only English!” he said and we nod trying to suppress our laughter. Park과장 sighs when 이사님 leaves. He grins and tells me we cant talk when director is hovering around us. We both giggle like kids who had been caught by the teacher. Just then, Ma이사님 summoned me to his desk. Kim차장 and Park과장 both chuckling,I could barely stop chuckling myself. When I made my way to 이사님’s desk, he asked why I was laughing. I told him it was bcoz Park과장 is scared of speaking English around him, 이사님 also laughs out hearing this Kekeke :v I find it odd when I make older people laugh. Is it because I’m silly to them? Or do they actually get my humour when other younger Koreans don’t? O.o Turnes out, Ma이사님 wants me to guide and help the Bangladeshi delegates from DPP project, who are scheduled to visit Korea next month. He hands me two sweet potatoes before leaving. Haha I HATE..no LOATH sweet potatoes, but I take it gratefully nonetheless, touched by his kindness ^_^
Onni re onni…kekek janish ami ipad er ms word e likhchhi first time :D tai goborer moto khushi lagchhe. Jaihok…koto kichhu bolbo bolbo kore bola hoy na…tora online hole tokhon mone hoy ei etotuku pichki jinish amar folao kore bolar ki. Abar mone hoy maishar moto kenken korchhi naki…zaihok..first e ki niye boli…amar ajkal ektu low self esteemi too obostha…oi job interview dewar shomoy amar personal statement and resume cheyechhilo. And bisshash kor amar KISSU nai shekhane dekhanor moto. Ajporjonto kono extra curricular activities o kori nai…ba result o temon ahamori kichu na…seriously tokhon nijeke prithibir shera gobor mone hoyechhe….kibhabe life waste korchhi…ei obostha thakle graduation er por ki asholeo kono real job khuje pamoo! And me also feels stuck in my social life. Suwon is like a prison -_- ekhane foreigner der jonno temon activities /club nai….ekta matro achhe but I don’t like it. Ekhane jehetu korar o kichhu nai so all they do is drink. And I don’t wanna make friends like that :| ekhane bola jae amar shob cheye close friend “O”. That’s not by choice though, its bcoz I have no other option. And its my fault cuz ami jokhon first suwon move kori oi haramjada ashraf niye depressed thaktam…sharakkhoni room e..eka beshi ber hotam na and I didn’t make that many friends -__- god now I regret it so much. O is not a horrible person or anything…and I dunno shey intentionally eta kore kina…but she is ALWAYS overshadowing me (I cant believe how pathetic I sound right now keke). Its always about her…everything must revolve around her…people mistake her for being a european and she enjoys the attention. And or shathe thakle always mone hoy I’m like a sidekick or something. Again, its not entirely her fault. People find europeans more exotic here than a simple asian..even though O is not really european. But its exhausting to be with her..O mone kore ALL the guys loooove her and stare at her-_- well she dresses pretty provocatively so who wouldn’t! Oufff ekhon mone hochhe ami jealous bitch er moto act korchhi. Maybe I am…I dunno but I truly don’t see whats so special about her. I have far more beautiful and talented girl friends than her who don’t have to wear shorts with their asses hanging out :| Anyway I try not be judgmental most of the time but sometimes her princess disease just gets on my nerves. Sometimes she even lies to koreans that shey korea te ashar age ekdomi korean janto na and ekhane eshe magically efo improve korechhe. That’s soo not true cuz she took korean classes for 2/3 years back in her country. I find a lot of similarities between her and paiga apu….paiga apu is not a bad person but she also has the princess disease…jar karone she had good long lasting friends. And her current friends r very easy going…mane paiga apu ja bole tai mene chole type (according to mu & boggo) Similarly “O” o bhab kore j shey emoni cool j she can only be friends with guyz, she doesn’t get girls blah blah. That’s probably bcoz no girl wants to put up with her princess-ness. And her guy “friends” are not even true friends, just wants to sleep with her. Ive had some good times with O…but now I feel so stuck with her. Amra ekshathe ekta trip e giyechhilam. Okhane seoul theke amar arekta friend o chhilo. And O was sooo antisocial the whole time. And bcoz of her I couldn’t make new friends -_- ami ekjoner shathe kotha barta shuru korar por she also joined. Now when I look back I regret ever even taking her to that trip. If I wanna hang with the friend from that trip, O will be there.Last year ami first chinese friend der shathe eki class e chhilam And became friends. But one of them is from O’s major, so this year they became friends. So now even when I hang out with chinese friends O is there….koydin age I met up with a friend “R” bcoz it was her bday and I wanted to give her bday gift over lunch. O janto j ive been trying to meet with R. Class er por giye dekhi O o okhane. And like an uninvited guest she joined us in the restaurant. Then hotat kore “urrghh…I feel suffocated here” dhong kore chole gelo. Like wth!? U invade our plan and then leave abruptly making a scene! Then recently festival e amra ekshathe chhilam with two other friends. Then jei chheleta amader prder nite eshechhilo he was soooooo cute! And I said it, that time she acted like she didn’t hear it. Then after half an hour or so she said “omggg that guy is soo cute!!” -_____- tokhon theke she started fangirling even though she knew I said it first. Ami jani tuiki bhabchhish, j it all sounds soo childish like something Nayma & I would do in college. But celeb and real life is so different. I just think its so inconsiderate of her to ignore that I could’ve had a crush too. Anyway I tried to let it go, I mean I don’t even know the guy. Festival er por amader friend hotat unir bairer ek restaurant e oi chhele k kaj korte dekhechhe so she told us. So O asked us if we could have dinner at that restaurant this weekend. It was frustrating cuz she was fangirling all the time..and making everything about her. Like ami jodi arek friend k kichhu boli she has to be a part of it, even though shes busy staring at that guy. I mean what does she expect? Hindi movier moto o nayoker dike takiye lojja pane amd amra background dancer er moto pichhe diye komor dulabo? Then festival e arekta ghotona hoyechhilo. She invited one of her friend to hang out with us, and amra almost 2 ghontar moto ekshathe chhilam. The whole time they were like “uhh I’m so bored and tired…maybe we should go home…I have so much homework” blah blah then we decided to go home. I even saw them walking towards their home direction. Then suddenly next day fb te dekhi they went back to festival (!) Not that I was desperate to hang out with them but if they wanted to get rid of me they were such bitches. Every now and then I wonder maybe I’m the one who’s being a bitch, but I never had this of kind of problem with any of my friends before. Then halloween e jokhon club e gelam, shekhane around 2am amader arek friend er friend, got vomitted on (!) LOL so shei friend oi friend er shathe bashae chole jete chachhilo. And I didn’t wanna go with them. Cuz oder bashae shei KHU seoul campus e, I wanted to stay in some coffee shop around the club with O, so that we can take the first bus back to suwon in the morning. But I dunno why on earth O insisted that we go with the other friends. It was ridiculous, like amra thaki suwon e and tara thake seoul e. Why are we following them, and bujhlam oi meye(the one who got vomitted on) r obostha bhalo chhilo na. But oi meye emon na j she was seriously hurt or something, whereas my toe was bleeding inside my heels, I could barely walk. But still she made me go there, made me walk more than I shouldve! I was so angry that night. Another example, when we go to karaoke, she ALWAYS ruins my song. Ami jodi emon kono gan gai that we both know, she has to ruin it! Ami ektu low voice e gai, and O high voice e, often out of tune. So when she sings with me my voice can be barely heard! Tao jodi emon hoto j she’s singing good, tao na, with her off key notes she ruins my notes too! And I get so upset bcoz I just wanted to sing one song peacefully without her interference. I never try to jump in on other people’s songs bcoz I think everyone should get their chance to shine. She knows I loove Singing Ariana Grande songs, but she purposely sings it everytime, and ruins it -__- Jekhanei jai theres always O. I feel like I cant even get new friends or grow on my own because of her. Its not totally her fault, its also my bad fate 😓 Sometimes I feel like running away to seoul asap. Although this moving to seoul has been a huge cliffhanger in my life and Im tired of it too, but I have to make a decision by the end of this year. Either I stay here where Im already settled , near uni, but with limited friends and fun options, or I move to seoul and start over again…be a stranger again…theres no guarantee that my social life will be better than it is now, and Id have to manage time traveling to suwon for some classes, but I can a get a job in seoul easily… :/ Sheidn tor shathe chat korar age I was with O, these days I always end up with her so I guess I was a bit off. Anyway…so what do u think?
Okay~~so zaaa zaaaa bhule giyechhilam video te bolte ekhane likhmoo. TUi
bolechhili treat dewar kotha~dimoo re baba dimoo ebar. Tora koi khete chash/jete chash bolish. Karon ami jani isui zani na! Hahahah and haga k bol tar haga gula bedhe hagar mala banate. Password recover korte bol. Never mind, ami hagar kachh theke emails expect kori na…ami eita rag koreo bolchhi na. Shobar lifei change hoye giyechhe so…ki r korar. Oiooioioi kalke ami almost 3 YEARS por 1st time nail polish diyechhi :D :D amar mone hochhe nijer hate nijei chumu mari! KEKEKEKEKEK Onek bhoye risk niye nial coat diye ek angule try kore dekhechhilam kono allergic reaction hoy kina. But hoy nai :D so ami kalke 2 ta zhaka-naka colour kinlam hoooohooo! O! Kalke toke amar class er jei polar bepare bolechhilam na? Shei polake ajkeo dekhlam~amra eng class badeo music class e ekshathe. But kohono ekshathe boshi nai. Ajkeo boshi nai, or row pula khalihhilo. So ami or 2 seat pore boshechhilam. Dhaet pola j keno nojor karlo! Ekdom porothome just “hm~dekhite to balai lage” bhebechhilam. Erpor kichhui na. But kalke hotat first time shirt TAO ABAR in kore pore eshechhilo -______- playing with my weakness pola! Jaihok~semester er last e eshe crush khawar kono manei hoy na. So me will let this go :P OI tui mamar upor keno rag?? Bol na bol na :( bolbiii na jokhon teaser marish ken? >:( jaihok, ami eibar july 10th-august 10th porjonto thakbo. Tora ki ki korte chash chinta bhabna kore rekhish. Pore abar bolish na ami time dei nai~~~Achha, ebar jai~toodles!
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Heheheheheheheehehehehe. Onek din por abar blog e likhchi. (^o^) Kintu eibar mainly ekta jinish dekhate ichha korchilo toder, oi jonno blog e ashlam. :D Ami manga pori eita to janish-i tora. Ageo koek ta chobi diyechilam blog e. Ajke ekta porte giye abar dite ichha korche eikhane. Ekta high school er story. Main chele 1st time or crush er kache confess korte jaowar age shob steps note kore rekhe sheita abar review dichhilo. Oi part tai toder dekhate ichha korche. :D Reading sequence- right to left. Ulta porish na, tahole kichui bujhbi na.
Amar eita pore eto hashi ashchilo. Bechara pore onek koshto kore abar confess koreo. Shathe shathe rejected hoye jai. (-_-) Still amar ei pola k cute lage onek. Bol cute na??? :3 :3 :3
HEHEHEH amar colour & design class er assignment holo khaetness diye chokh noshto kora :P and surpisingly this semester's drawing classgula moja lagchhe. Jodio kichhu pari na :D anad naymader moto perspective draewing korachhe jar jonno panty chhire susu goragori khawar obostha! ANd concert e jawa hoy nai -_- bhaloi hoyechhe actually, cuz okhane oneeek bhir chhilo plus it wasn't worth it. Atleast shei time tae amar homework kichhu agate parlam. MM...r ki komoooo......dhaet ekhon mathae ashchhe na. Pore ekshomoy baki kotha arekta post e dibo. Onni tui post korish after ur exmas :D